So, it has been about two and a half years since I've last written here. It has been two and a half years of much change and transition in my life. Quite honestly, I have lacked the motivation to write here and have felt I didn't really have anything much worth saying. I had always viewed blogging as an extension of my pastoral ministry and a function of the overflow of study, and was never too huge a fan of theology blogs in general without connection to the church. So, the silence here has also been due to a question of identity of sorts.
The last two and half years I have lived life as a "normal" Christian, not as a pastor/missionary, and have been trying to learn what growth and putting Christ first in everything in "normal life" looks like. Not always successfully. I have been rather tempted in my downness to believe the "hand of the Lord is shortened" (Num. 11:23, Isa. 50:2). Is God really at work around/in me? Is God listening?
I long to have the reality of Ephesians 1:19 rooted more deeply in my heart, and to come true more consistently in my life:
Having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know...what is the immeasurable greatness of his power toward us who believe
Lord, forgive my jaded heart; your hand is not shortened, it does indeed save. It saved me! Help me to yield to and trust you through all of life, to see and savor your greatness above and throughout everything in life, and to share your greatness with those you place in my life.
There is perhaps still room for reflection and writing on the "one thing necessary" from this persepective. And perhaps some of you may benefit from the process. We'll see where it goes...